no go

As I suspected I am not meeting up with my wife. No big shocker there. She is too tired to have me come by where she is housesitting and hang out with her. Give me a fucking break! So I am to sit here and do nothing. Which is ok, because I am tired as shit too. It would have been a nice feeling to cuddle and fall asleep with my wife in my arms. Didn't even have to have wild hot tub sex like we both claim we want.

I think I am done with this thing. I am finding it way to hard not to hold a grudge against her. I wish that I had taken up some of the offers of bedding a woman over the last few years. Now I play the holier than thou thing and it's just dumb. I am thinking I will pay off our debt and next spring bail. I don't really think I have any other option.

I do know that I am destined to be a solitary man for the rest of my life. I never intend to marry again. I will grow old and be happy with that. I love the ladies still but will never have one say she is all mine...what a crock of shit that is. And they want to say gay/lesbians ruin the sanctity of marriage...us straight people do a pretty damn good job of that as well.

Shout out

I would like to say thanks to Single for dropping by and being so kind as to give me props on her blog. Was fun to say the least.

My sleeping is all fucked up. I stayed up all day Friday and went to bed about 6p.m. I woke up out of a dead sleep at 4:30 a.m. I was up till about noon and crashed until about 12:30 a.m. I guess I needed the sleep. But now I am going to be up all damn night and I am not looking forward to that. I am going to putz around on the computer and hopefully get bored enough to wanna sleep. I also have some Tylenol PM for these occasions. Wish me luck.

I am not sure I am going to be seeing my wife tomorrow, she is cranky and hates my guts. Yeah, no tales of steamy hot tub sex. The story of my life.

not really sure

Today is cold and rainy. I worked midnights last night and have the weekend off so I am staying up as late as I can today. I was hoping to have a fun Sunday but I think this rain is going to stick around. So i figure I will try to get back to basics with the wife. Some much needed TLC and for her and crazy sex for the both of us. So maybe it will be a grudge fuck on my part, but can you blame me? We'll see how that all pans out.

I haven't checked my wifes emails or myspace in a few days. I am not really sure I want to dig and find shit anymore. I would flip out and bail all together. So I am staying off the Columbo shit for a while unless I suspect something else is up. Which I am sure will be soon.

I have some errands to run but may write when I get back. I don't have much to say. So, maybe you the readers that seem to be coming back again and again may have some suggestions as for topics or questions you want answered, after all the purpose of this blog is to be an open book.

The balls

What the fuck? My wife had the balls to call me today and ask if she could go up to visit her pals again. I guess they do some good partying on Friday the 13ths. I never tell my wife she can't do anything. But to ask me to go and hang with the people that she fucked a month ago kind of pissed me off. Of course she isn't going! She is starting to get things straight for her. I think she is realizing that marriage involves 2 people working together. We are making more time for us and enjoying each others company again.

As may be expected my sex life is nonexsistent. I think we are both getting back into that mode. Sunday will be a day that is all us. We plan on going on a hike, out to dinner, and watch a movie. Then going to where she is housesitting and have mad hot tub sex. I am planning on taking pictures. She also shared with me today that she wants to have a 3-some with me. It would be her and possibly our ex-neighbor, who is a sexy red head. Not to mention we are planning on having cam sex soon. I am not sure what exactly my wife wants with that. I know she doesn't want single dudes watching us. I think she wants couples and females with a cam to watch and play with us. So if any of you are interested let me know. LOL!

Well, I am outta here, I have to get ready for work. Enjoy!!

just a thought

Should I even be pissed at my wife?? I mean I am the one here talking to women and masturbating all the time. I was even actively persuing women to have carnal knowledge of them. Am I mad that she beat me to it? Was I ever going to really cheat or just get the boost in the arm from women telling me I am cute and they love watching me cum for them? Does this make me a hypocrite? I have never cheated on her and I still would love to meet a woman for a night of unbelievable sex and if all goes well repeats.

There is no doubt in my mind that my wife is a vixen in bed. We have been stale with what has been going on in our lives for the past 12+ months. But something excites me about the fact that adultery is "bad". Is it just me or is the sex great when you go outside of your marriage? Or am I just thinking of greener grass?

So everything is as good as can be expected at Club Neanderthal. My wife is housesitting again, for 11 days. The place has a hot tub and we are thinking about being naughty since our anniversary is tomorrow. So maybe some freaky hot tub sex will help us out. I will keep you informed.