SNAFU

Well all is well still. Kind of like I stated in the post prior to this one, I am boring. I work and come home and count the days tillI can have my son come over for a visit.

To pass the time I talk on Yahoo IM. Not really talk. Type talk...and sometimes voice. I started chatting while I was still maried. I never really had bad intentions. I liked meeting new people and kind of creating a "friendships". I have been talking with this one woman for over 18 months now. She is married. By all accounts, its a good marriage and she is happy. Her husband is a few years older than she is. I don't think that they have that much in common. Where as me and this amazing woman are only seperated by 14 days in age. We seem to have a lot on common and enough NOT in common to really enjoy ourselves.

When we first started chatting it was a casual thing. Then one day we would up flirting and getting each other off. We had done it a few more times and then I had kind of stayed clear of flirting and being naughty with her. We stayed in contact often and then while I was moving and figuring out where I was going to move I just dropped off the face of the earth. Then I came back and she was the first one I was concerned with getting in touch with. So we started chatting again and it became a daily occurance. Still no sex talk. Just enjoying each others chats.

Then a few months ago, maybe 6, I started really liking this woman. I don't get how I allowed myself to fall into that. Not really my thing. She is just an awesome woman. We always talk about a little out of the way place that we both know of and kind of fantasize about a real meet there some time. I don't think she would ever do it. I'm not sure I could ever do that. I would however would LOVE to meet her for a beer or something.

She is always telling me how she thinks of me and what I mean to her. I love the way that makes me feel when she tells me that. But how do I still enjoy her and try to keep my distance? She is beautiful and smart.

Maybe I should just deal with it and enjoy it for what it is. She is awesome. I just have issues I guess I need to work out.

Yep, I guess I am still pathetic.

alive and well

I know nobody comes here anymore. Thats my fault. I haven't been a very good writer. Plus there hasn't been much to write about. I am still going thru my divorce. I am cool with it and just want to move on and get out of here. I still get to see my son whenever I want. He is so awesome. He is 6 now and losing teeth like a mad man. I enjoy every minute I can share with him.

I am working my ass of as always. Thats all I do. I work and come home and do it all over again. I have no life. I spend every extra dime I can on bills. I have no sex life. I masturbate a few times a week. Is kind of a good thing when my son comes for the weekend as I don't play then. So when I drop him off at the bus on Monday morning I come home and masturbate.

I bought a new laptop because my old computer was slowing down. I transferred all my files from old computer to an external hard drive. I was looking thru pictures and came across some nudes of the soon to be ex. I have no idea why, but they excite me to no end. These pictures weren't intended for my eyes. They were intended for her little fuck buddies. the thought of that drives me crazy. There are plenty of pussy pics and her great tits. Such a turn on to look at.

I will write more now that I have a decent computer and still nothing to say. I do have a situation I will write about next time.