all things considered

I am still kicking and I am sure that there is nobody that comes here anymore. I guess you need to write something for that to happen.

I am in a whole new place in my life. I am still a miserable bastard but a lot beter I think. I am kind of taking the Bruce Willis approach to this divorce thing. You know be active in my childs life and get along with th ex and "new dude". Although the ex is dumb as usual but I seem to tolerate it a bit more since I'm not sharing a bed with her.

I have also been having insane dirty dreams about having sex with my ex. I have no idea what thats all about. I mean she was great in bed and I haven't had sex since February. I am sure that has something to do with it.

I am in the process of getting a new job. The job I have now is not cutting it. I am unable to enjoy my life and provide for myself and son. I am just getting deeper and deeper into debt. I am actually not in terrible shape as far as debt goes but my credit isn't worth a shit. I need to get a job that allows me to pay my bills AND debt. Then I can eventually put some money away for that rainy day and be good to go. Then I will eventually get to move back home to MN and enjoy life.

Yes, I will be away from my son but if all goes well I will get this job I have been looking at sometime after the 1st of the year. Pays well and should get me out of debt within 6 months. I am also planning on sending a "manifesto" to the VP of the region I work in. It's a fucking joke what I am expected to do and what I get paid. Sucks so bad. So I am going to do something about it.

My son is doing great. He is a sponge when it comes to school. He is learning new thinsg every day. I went with him on a field trip a few weeks ago and had to boot the ND from going going. I told the ex that I get dibs on anything that has to do with our son. He is such a good kid I wish he didn't have to go through this shit.