What does that mean?

All is well. I had a heart to heart with the soon to be ex-wife last week and things have been better between us. I'm sure she will still be bugging me for money but I think that goes without saying. For now the fued has settled for a while, which is a great thing.

I am just working and staying busy with a few of the other things that I do in my free time. I am getting a lot of pressure at work to go out and get laid. I am missing sex a lot but not something that I am willing to just jump into for the sake of having sex. I can do a good enough job cleaning my pipes. But I will save all that talk for another entry.

I am online but not without having huge headaches every time I turn my computer on. My computer is about 4 years old and I am using a wireless doo-hicky. It says I am at full speed but won't let me get online or anything. or I am fortuante enough to get online and then it kicks me off. It pisses me off. Hence the reason I haven't written as much as I have wanted to. I almost have the money saved up I need to buy a laptop. I am hoping that will help me out and have more reliabilty when I want to be online. Wish me luck, not to mention I can just sit in my bed and be online. Plus, I can get rid of my old clunky old school desk top.

Anyway, I was talking with some family members this weekend and they all said I was "spunding better". What the hell does that mean? I am not saying that this divorce hasn't put me in the dumps a little but I didn't think I was reflecting that to the outside world and over the phone. Taking a look at myself I can see that I am doing better and comfortbale with what is going on in my life. I am open and have no reservations about who I am and what is going on.

Yeah it sucks. But I have had worse things happen to me than this. I know that I will come out ok and probably be better off than I was. Men I think feel compelled to be with women and share things. Men are needy and saps. We just don't want the ladies to know this.

Anyway, I am off to go chill and get some sleep so I can work tomorrow. Will write again soon.