two wild and crazy guys

Hmmm, so my life has been just fucked these last few days. I am not sure as to what the fuck I want. I love this woman. I love the thought of what our family could be together. I just don't know, I am thinking I will tough it out and pay these bills and file for a divorce.

I have a pal where I am orginally from that is moving very swiftly in his divorce. I wanna say that he brought the idea up about divorce just about a month ago and they are now seeing a mediator and figuring shit out. It's cheaper and for the most part seems to be going ok for them. His soon to be ex is kind of being a bitch about it. She will be making out ok in the deal any way you look at it.

I just got a call from him this evening and he is hitting the bars and plans on fucking this sexy little bartender he has been chatting up for a while. I want that! I don't want be a man whore but just the option to say, I am going out tonight and if there is a chance I am gonna get laid, I will take it. We have been joking around how it would be funny for us to become roommates if/when I move back home. We would be Dan Akroyd and Steve Martin......Two Wild and Crazy Guys. We would go back to basics and be insane for a while I would imagine. Getting drunk and weenie slinging. It would all come to an end and I would settle back down and get my wonderful life back on track.

I think that half my problem is that I am where I am. I am not a huge fan of it. Does very little for me. I have been all around this great world of ours and I know that the mid-west is the place for me. I have become a bitter prude while living here and I hate that about me. I want to go home where I can fish, hike, canoe, camp all within minutes of my city. Sure I can do that stuff here kind of. I have to drive longer and pay more. Not to mention I have no pals to share it with. So wish me luck and we will see how this wonderful life I have craved out for msyelf winds up. Should be interesting at the least.